Rexburg's Evil Powers

I think Rexburg is cursed for Mathew and I. When we come here, it kind of means eat out like crazy. We have gone out of control once again, and once again, I have gained weight! Ugh. I am trying so hard to not get depressed right now. I become so in denial sometimes. I think to myself, oh it's just this one time, or oh it's a special date night, I can eat what I want. The excuse list goes on and on...and on...and on.

I've been feeling extra yucky lately. We had a rough couple weeks where G's Dairy kept calling our names and our starving student card was just begging to be used. That starving student card is almost more of a curse. I feel like we have to get our money's worth so I am always saying, let's go eat here and get one meal free! Then of course we order more than normal because something's free and I eat until I can barely move. It's disgusting. But sadly, I think I'm realizing that I have a food addiction and I think I'm invincible to bad food.

I have kept saying things need to change, no more eating out, no more frequent desserts, no more eating late at night. I say all of this and commit, but then I just CAN'T keep my commitments! I don't understand what happens to me when I come to Rexburg. It's SO frustrating! I make so many excuses not to go to the gym, or not to make dinner and then I figure since I already messed up in one day, it's not going to do any good to be better the rest of the day.

I met with a fitness consultant at school and he gave me a workout regimen to do for a couple weeks then meet up with him again. For the first week, I did absolutely nothing. I had a million excuses to not workout. However, Wednesday, I did it. I went to the gym and was so proud. Then aaalll day yesterday I promised myself I would go to zumba last night. (I have said I'd go to zumba many times previously but always failed to go). I had to repeatedly tell myself that I would go and finally I went and it was so much fun. I went by myself and felt kind of awkward at first but a few minutes in, I was hooked and just didn't care what I looked like. There were all kinds of people there and I didn't feel like I stuck out at all. Anyways, it was just tons of fun.

Maybe if I make a commitment on this blog, I will actually be better. I just want to be healthy, but I am so easily tempted by food. I absolutely hate counting calories but I might have to pick it up again, just to get an idea of where I actually am. I need to learn to say no. I've told Mathew I really need his help. I seriously can not do this by myself and I need someone there to always be encouraging me and help me make the right choices because clearly I can't make them on my own. What happened to that time when I lost 20 pounds no problem???? I want that attitude back. I guess I'll just have to dig around to find it.

Valentine's Day

This Valentine's Day was awesome. Mathew totally spoiled me and made it such a special day.

For breakfast, I made us stuffed french toast. It was so delicious. I wish I could say ours looked like this, (I did use the same recipe) but it was a little less beautiful. I used raspberries instead of strawberries and definitely enjoyed every bite.

I then gave Mathew his present after breakfast. I got him a pen with his name engraved on it...and a bag of Snickers. He had an engraved pen from his mission that somehow has been misplaced. I have felt terrible about it and wanted to make it up to him. He seemed to love it. :) He gave me my first present, which was a heart shaped box of chocolates. Score.

We then rushed to the car to go to class. I drove so I could drop him off and as we got in the car, he told me to grab a box that was in a little compartment by the steering wheel. I opened the box and discovered a  beautiful pearl necklace. I my goodness, I LOVE it. Mine has blackish pearls instead of white though.

So, the day proceeded and later that day I had to accompany someone. He took the car to go get us a heart shaped pizza for dinner. When he picked me up from the Snow building, I got in the car to find a bouquet with roses! Ah I was so excited. I've teased him because he's never given me flowers and of course it's every girl's dream to get flowers from a boy...well it's always been my dream at least. I was ecstatic. He totally spoiled me. My engraved pen kind of seemed lame by the end of the day but oh well. :)

Tired of blogging...

I'm going through a phase of disliking blogging. I don't really have much of a desire to get on here and post haha. Anyone else feel that way? All I want to do is crochet, study, and read other blogs...oh and get on Pinterest. Speaking of Pinterest...I totally resisted it for so long. I was determined to never get on that bandwagon. Thanks to my fashion design class, that commitment failed. Now I'm so glad I'm on it. I've found so many cute crochet projects and super yummy recipes. I still try not to stay on for too long though, I don't want it to take over my whole life!

So, here's an update on us in bullet points, because I'm far too lazy to write full sentences and paragraphs right now.

• We donate plasma for money now
• I had a session with a fitness consultant/personal trainer yesterday and my quads hurt like crazy! 
• Biggest Loser is driving me crazy this season. Not very inspirational and so overdramatic. Conda has GOT to go.
• I love White Collar
• We walk to class whenever possible. It's a mile and a half each way.
• I'm losing motivation to do well in school now that I don't have to worry about scholarships
• I got a new MacBook Air and I love it but am still pretty attached to my old MacBook
• I'm going to be in a fashion show at the end of the semester
• We tried our first bountiful basket and I suck at using produce
• We have an addiction to G's Dairy ice cream...and the same guy is working every time we go so I feel a little self-conscious
• My crochet sales are dwindling and I would really appreciate any advice for how to make the business better. Also, seriously, please spread the word. Word of mouth is seriously the BEST way to let people know about my stuff. 
• Mathew and I can't wait to be done with school. 
• By the end of the semester, I'll have slopers for my own body so I can design and make clothes for myself! Yeah!

I can't think of anything else to say. Someday I hope to like blogging again. :)